New beginnings.

With the close of 2010, my mind is thrown into reflection over what I have accomplished this year and what I plan to accomplish in 2011. I don't know about the rest of the world, but Christmas is not an easy time for me. I have grown and changed so much since I left home and then I am thrown back into my old world, where old pains, annoyances and frustrations can resurface. I adore my family, don't get me wrong, but it is not always easy.

Secondly, I have to face junk food galore and frankly, I don't feel too pretty after I have eaten a load of Christmas baking.

Despite all of the difficulties, my brother and I had a good little heart to heart where he told me that "you" are not a fat or a skinny person. "You" is "You". People love you for who YOU are. Sure, strangers will treat you differently according to your appearance, but the people who really care will love you all the same.

I think about my mother who I love soooo much. I couldn't care less if she gains or looses 20 lbs. However, with that being said, she is happier when she is treating herself good. I am happier when I treating myself good.

So, this year is not about loosing weight. Sure, loosing weight would be nice, but what really matters is that I feel comfortable in my own skin. This will come as I work hard to treat myself as I would treat someone else. You would not see me shoving chocolate down a child's throat. That would be abuse. Why do it to yourself? You are a child of God and you deserve the best!